Psychic why was kie ignoring me today, she talk to my sister but not me. i mean every person that i call?

friend somehow avoid me some point, or talk behind my back,also is she talking behind my back. what did i do for me to have bad friends, half of my friends talk behind my back and others they just ignore me when they feel like it. i have a job and i'm the only one who work the most while my co-worker don't and i feel its unfair that they are getting away with it and getting pay for doing nothing, one of my friend name marina work with me, but she don't do anything, she talk with her friends or play with her cell phone , i feel that i'm curse,thing in my life is meaningless, i'm not perfect but my god every bad thing is happening to me, what did i do to deserve bad friends,i'm honest, trustful and real,why are they turning against me,sometime i believe i'm not part of this world i want to die,everything i do or say mean nothing to anyone, people only pity me or feel bad for me which i hate,i want to be accept for being me but i guess i'm not. i want to die very young and just go to hell if there is one and burn alive maybe that can make my day, i mean my life is not good nor anything i find memorable, i know nothing is perfect and i have to move on but this is like everyday, no one understand me, they think i'm just this person they can bother around.it just worthless