Story of me & quite frankly the girl of my dreams.?

Ok this is rather a long story but is something i need to get off my chest & more importantly need advice on. I met this girl about a year ago now during October of 2009 on an internet chat site called Mocospace. We started out as friends getting to know each other & at the time I had no phone to talk to her on so we just chatted online all the time. The more I got to know her, the more I realized I was falling in love with her. She's alluring, smart, has the most perfect personality you could find in someone. Great values for herself & actual set of morals that seems to be lacking with most women today (my list could go on & on). Well I decided to grow some about a month after getting to know her & told her I was falling in love with her. It was out of the blue & very sudden but she told me that she felt the same. We started dating & getting closer, after a while she broke up with me because she told me things were moving too fast for her & she had to take a step back pretty much to think about "us" & asked if we could be friends. I told her yes but vanished for a while because I found out she liked another guy as well & she started dating him shortly after we split up. Well I was gone for about little over a month without talking to her & when I came back I had messages from her saying Im the only reason she's stuck around & asked me to take her back. I was so dam happy to hear from her at the least missing her soo much & I told her I would. We talked about what was the problem before & sorted it out. She had moved to WV to be with her sick grammy who was dying. When she ped her pappy followed soon after & she told him about Her & I, which he said to her if you love him give him everything you got & dont hold back. She said that was the night before he ped. I was so torn up inside for acting immature to her & leaving her alone for a while like i did. I felt closer to her & even deeper in love. She vanished on me about a month after we got back together, everything was great between us if not better than before. Well come to find out her friend sent me a message saying she was in an accident while driving here to Ohio to try & see me & was in a coma. Now I had no money & no way of finding out where the hell she was being kept to at least try & use someone else's phone to call the hospital. Her friend never replied back to my questions & I was left in the dark. I fell into depression & cried my eyes out every night praying & hoping she was alright, im no dummy i know when something feels like a joke & when it does not.. This felt real & several months ped with out hearing a word from her. Finally one day I logged on & behold she was online, sent me messages saying how sorry she was about everything & asked if I would still have her. It upset me for her to even ask me such a question but I never showed to her I was upset I told her why would I not want you after all you've been through for me & I have nothing to show for to even thank you I broke down on her & told her I should have been there for you which i should have been I fell apart not knowing what the hell to do or what to say where to go. I would have walked to WV had i known where she was being kept. She said she was still in love with me & asked if i'd still ever have her. I told her I never left you Kera & that I want to spend my life with you. We got back together & here is where things get screwed up. She has known this guy online for a while as well & has liked him. We got into an argument about a week after she was back because she was ignoring me for some reason & I couldn't figure out why. I talked to her on the phone & everything was fine now she is ignoring me & it was upsetting me. So she broke up with me saying she didn't love me anymore. But still wants to be friends? How does one go through all that for someone & a week after being back leave you. Well come to find out she is with this new guy but thinks she's hiding it from me. She still calls me & talks to me but I just cannot for the life of me move on or be rude to her because of all the **** she's gone through. She's even booked a trip to england to see the ****** for her birthday in March?? Im so upset but I don't want to say anything to hurt her because I don't want to loose her all together. Im still so in love with her & feel like she doesn't know what she wants...Whats worst is this guy she's "secretly" with I think is changing her, I can hear it in the way she talks & acts around me now. I dont know what to do about all this mess I just want her to realize she is my everything & wish she'd talk to me about why she split up with me it's killing me slowly inside seeing her lie to my face about this new guy mostly & tell me they are just friends. Why did she have such a change of heart all of a sudden? What should I do about her & this situation im on my last breath i feel anymor